Sleepy Snail

Not all those who wander are lost

Monday, August 17, 2009

In 5 more hours, i will board the longest flight i ever have, transiting at Tokyo and New York. I hope my luggage will not get missing. =s

My last few days were busy. My lab had decided that I should add a new feature into our software before i leave, and sadly, my last few days were much spent with coding C++. I guess that even after I leave, I still need to complete some tasks for them.

I am not really that excited now, probably because I worked too hard for the last week and I haven't time to think about anything else. Stepping into an unknown world is scary, and not knowing what lies ahead is even scarier. I have not decided nor known what I intend to do after I get my master's degree. Sometimes, seeing that most of my friends have started working makes me a bit worried and I also feel bad that I am unlikely to contribute much financially to my mother for the next few years or so. Of course, the only consolation is that i actually get paid for doing research in an university and get a certificate at the end of the day. now, doing a PhD right after that seems most possible right now, but as what jj said, "your views and thinking will change after you go there". I hope he's right.

I often think about what I will be doing a few years down the road, and most of them are mundane stuff like programming job with big mncs, doing research in sg etc. the only exciting thing i have ever mentioned is "joining a international NGO to save the world". is it partly because i'm a singaporean and that's why my plans sound so boring and conventional? when i was in france, someone mentioned that his plan is to spend 1 year travelling and working throughout the world after graduation. mark suggested that since I used to do commnunity work, maybe I should consider being a professor in the 3rd world countries. Haa, i think it sounds like a good idea, but i wonder whether my mother will be happy that i'm earning less than what a fresh grad can earn in sg.

the only good thing out of this is that i feel like i have the freedom to consider what i really want during the two years. it's important to know what you really want at the end of the day, so that every step you take now is leading you into that direction. yet, enjoying the journey to try to reach for the goal is equally important. for me, i think i just have to wander a while more before finding my path.

just a few days back, xw asked me what age i intend to get married, and i answered, 'before 30'. lately, it dawned upon me that i have been doing nothing that can possibly let me get married b4 30, hahaha. actually before i entered NUS, i thought that it's ideal to marry at 27 to 28, but clearly, this is not going to happen to me since I am not as productive chee hong? as someone who actually get married during his student exchange programme in france.

anyway, i will be in toronto from 20th to 25th. Will update my blog after I'm back with more photos!

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